The Gap...

I woke up this morning with the realization that I’ve been scared of not being busy enough during this gap phase of life I find myself living. As a result, I think I’ve put a lot of pressure on myself to find things to do in an effort to try and outrun the quiet. I’m used to being busy and I like it that way. Up until a couple of weeks ago I had a full time job I adored (being a mom) and meaningful work I engaged in outside my four walls and I greatly miss both. Being downsized is hard. Waiting is hard. Starting over is hard. Justifying how you spend your time can be hard. So today I embraced exactly where I am in the gap and I didn’t worry about how much I should do or what I should get accomplished. I let myself wander without direction (See what I did there? I can’t get lost if I don’t worry about directions!) and I found one of the things I’ve been looking for (and rather despondent about not finding) — new breakfast spots! I know some of you will be lost as to why this matters but for all of my breakfast pals out there this will resonate — I haven’t been out to breakfast in over a week! I’m terrible at slowing down but I’m smart enough to know when God’s trying to get my attention. Hitting pause today and listening has been good medicine. #LeaningIntoTheGap #Redemption#BreakfastIsLife #BaconMatters #ATLOTPDayFive